Tick tock (not that annoying song)
I'm turning 28 this weekend! ACCCK!!!
It's slowly dawning upon me as people are asking what's the plan for the day / night. I really don't feel like celebrating. I just wanna hide at home and watch football. Can I do that?
It sucks reaching the age when in your idealistic young days you've targeted to have achieved quite a number of things, and I, have done absolutely none.
A few years ago, I laughed at a drifter, saying all he does is travel, surf and at his age - he doesn't even know what to do in life (well you can do all that, when your parents are rich). Now I'm his age, and I feel like shit, and very much like him, I don't know what the hell to do in my life. Can I go back to my past and slap my younger bitchy self a few times?
A job is a job, but I don't want just a job; I want something I love to do, that I would wake up easily for. I don't want to roll my eyes when I go to a brief and half of the brief they speak Cantonese in ( I know right, being proficient in English is useless when you work in this part of the industry, you just need enough English to get by). I don't want that come Mondays, I groan like 90% of the population. I don't want to collect the same paycheque every month and wish I am so much smarter so I'm not doing this.
I want a reason to look at the future and not see a blur of a place I don't want to go to. I want to be immortal, in the hearts and minds of others. I want a little of my footprints left behind on this Earth when I go. I don't want to be forgotten.
The clock is ticking to my 28th, what does this coming year has in store for me?
It's slowly dawning upon me as people are asking what's the plan for the day / night. I really don't feel like celebrating. I just wanna hide at home and watch football. Can I do that?
It sucks reaching the age when in your idealistic young days you've targeted to have achieved quite a number of things, and I, have done absolutely none.
A few years ago, I laughed at a drifter, saying all he does is travel, surf and at his age - he doesn't even know what to do in life (well you can do all that, when your parents are rich). Now I'm his age, and I feel like shit, and very much like him, I don't know what the hell to do in my life. Can I go back to my past and slap my younger bitchy self a few times?
A job is a job, but I don't want just a job; I want something I love to do, that I would wake up easily for. I don't want to roll my eyes when I go to a brief and half of the brief they speak Cantonese in ( I know right, being proficient in English is useless when you work in this part of the industry, you just need enough English to get by). I don't want that come Mondays, I groan like 90% of the population. I don't want to collect the same paycheque every month and wish I am so much smarter so I'm not doing this.
I want a reason to look at the future and not see a blur of a place I don't want to go to. I want to be immortal, in the hearts and minds of others. I want a little of my footprints left behind on this Earth when I go. I don't want to be forgotten.
The clock is ticking to my 28th, what does this coming year has in store for me?
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