That felt good

Ranting is good for you. I don't know about you but it works just fine for me when I am hurting, upset or angry. And it's even better when I make the rants clear, when I mention the names or hint at the people or things that bug me. It makes breathing much more...pleasant.

It may make me look bad or crazy, but at least I let the negative energy out. I need to see my anger or hurt in words, and then years later what I do is reread it. I may laugh, I may cry, I may feel embarrassed and I may feel shocked.

The point is to express and not keep it bottled.

I have been advised to keep things to myself by my mother (she tells me this all the time), but I know I am just not that type. Not yet anyway. Keeping it bottled inside won't heal me, won't make me feel better. Not in the short term, and definitely not in the long term.

I may be selfish in doing this, I may be unfair but hey, life isn't fair, and everyone is selfish.

I want to be happy, and in order to be happy, I have to do certain things which are not very pleasant. One of it is to let it alllll out.

Sometimes I do feel a bit taken aback when a friend tells me my rants are funny, or I'm funny when I'm angry or upset. I don't know what I'm supposed to feel about that. That my low points are hilarious?

But I like making people laugh so it's ok. :)