When the moon is round and full
Do you find the mention of menses gross? Coz I'm gonna talk about mine.
Well, not exactly the bloody, sticky, smelly red thing but the emotional turbulence that precedes it and when it finally comes.
When I was younger I never experienced this at all, so I thought it was something women made up as an excuse to be bitchy and difficult. And then gradually for the past few years, it happened to me.
And finally the three lettered foulness - PMS - made sense to me.
Now as I grow nearer to a new decade in my life, I am much more familiar with my body and how it behaves and affects my personality and well being. Basically, whenever I feel emotional, suicidal, homicidal, and disagreeable with everyone, it is coming. When I'm extra tired and lacking in energy and spirit, it is coming. When I start picking fights and snapping at people, it is coming.
It really is making me into a horrible person, at least for a couple of weeks every month. And it seems the older I get the crazier it becomes. It's no coincidence at all that it comes almost always around the full moon.
I wonder if this disturbed feeling inside will last until I'm menopausal, or will I finally succumb and run amok killing people (or myself)? Only time (and monthly bleeding) will tell.
Well, not exactly the bloody, sticky, smelly red thing but the emotional turbulence that precedes it and when it finally comes.
When I was younger I never experienced this at all, so I thought it was something women made up as an excuse to be bitchy and difficult. And then gradually for the past few years, it happened to me.
And finally the three lettered foulness - PMS - made sense to me.
Now as I grow nearer to a new decade in my life, I am much more familiar with my body and how it behaves and affects my personality and well being. Basically, whenever I feel emotional, suicidal, homicidal, and disagreeable with everyone, it is coming. When I'm extra tired and lacking in energy and spirit, it is coming. When I start picking fights and snapping at people, it is coming.
It really is making me into a horrible person, at least for a couple of weeks every month. And it seems the older I get the crazier it becomes. It's no coincidence at all that it comes almost always around the full moon.
I wonder if this disturbed feeling inside will last until I'm menopausal, or will I finally succumb and run amok killing people (or myself)? Only time (and monthly bleeding) will tell.
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