Growing back that wing
It's funny how one snap decision made in your mind could change your whole outlook on life and in turn, your entire perception of reality shifts. I have never believed this until it happened to me but the mind is a powerful thing. It can make pain disappear, the day a little brighter and bring good people and beautiful little experiences into your life.
I mentioned a little while ago about the chest pains. It turned out to be a major anxiety attack, which lasted for a week. I was given an all-clear by the cardiologist and since tests prove I'm unbelievably healthy despite all the stress and cigarettes, I understood then that all this is happening in my head.
And thus, I told myself. Never again. Never again will I suffer over another human being who does not even care about me. The minute I said that, it seems like the dark cloud that has been following me my entire life slowly shifted away.
I told myself: I want to be happy. Whatever good that comes my way, I will enjoy it, and appreciate every minute of it. And whatever bad (oh yes there will be, this is life after all), I will deal with it without losing my mind and without losing hope that it too will turnaround.
And there are good things, small things, big things that are coming into my life now that I understood would never happen if all the bad did not happen recently. The other day a friend said: All the bad things that are happening in your life right now is just God clearing the path for something better to happen to you. Just have faith.
God, the universe...is giving me a second chance. Never mind that I have to start over, I have to fly with one wing and fall many, many times. I will never look back again.
P.S. This is me writing, and I am not under the influence of any mind altering substances or hypnotism.
I mentioned a little while ago about the chest pains. It turned out to be a major anxiety attack, which lasted for a week. I was given an all-clear by the cardiologist and since tests prove I'm unbelievably healthy despite all the stress and cigarettes, I understood then that all this is happening in my head.
And thus, I told myself. Never again. Never again will I suffer over another human being who does not even care about me. The minute I said that, it seems like the dark cloud that has been following me my entire life slowly shifted away.
I told myself: I want to be happy. Whatever good that comes my way, I will enjoy it, and appreciate every minute of it. And whatever bad (oh yes there will be, this is life after all), I will deal with it without losing my mind and without losing hope that it too will turnaround.
And there are good things, small things, big things that are coming into my life now that I understood would never happen if all the bad did not happen recently. The other day a friend said: All the bad things that are happening in your life right now is just God clearing the path for something better to happen to you. Just have faith.
God, the universe...is giving me a second chance. Never mind that I have to start over, I have to fly with one wing and fall many, many times. I will never look back again.
P.S. This is me writing, and I am not under the influence of any mind altering substances or hypnotism.
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