November is here too soon
Blink and we're already creeping towards the end of the 2011. Around this time of the year I would usually feel agitated and anxious about being in town and are already planning vacations for December.
Unlike some lucky bunch (a lot of people it seems), I don't get to go on many vacations, due to work commitments and the pitiful state of my bank account. But one can dream. And plan.
However this year, I can plan and dream all I want but I know it cannot happen unless by some miracle I am allowed to not be in the office or outside doing any work for a week. I mean, who the hell wants to be on the beach replying to emails and doing fucking job quotations?
Last Friday I was on sick leave, and I spent the day working. I didn't bother handing in a medical certificate because of that.
But that's another story, for another time. This one will be for a quick reminiscing of what went on this past year so far, and what I can do in the time left (without freaking out).
If you don't count the few blacked out months this year, everything else has been pretty uneventful. Life is slow (as slow as it can be living in KL) and steady. Work is slow and not really steady.
There are times when I wish somewhere in this stifling slowness I could stop and ponder, what is it that I really want to do. I have figured it out now, and the ball is in my court for to act.
I'm not sure if I have the bravery, I am not used to risks. But it is almost the end of the year, and next year is my last year of my 20+ decades, and I may not have the chance again. I have blown chance after chance, due to fear and because of the comfort of not really challenging myself. But this is going to change.
Wish me luck?
Unlike some lucky bunch (a lot of people it seems), I don't get to go on many vacations, due to work commitments and the pitiful state of my bank account. But one can dream. And plan.
However this year, I can plan and dream all I want but I know it cannot happen unless by some miracle I am allowed to not be in the office or outside doing any work for a week. I mean, who the hell wants to be on the beach replying to emails and doing fucking job quotations?
Last Friday I was on sick leave, and I spent the day working. I didn't bother handing in a medical certificate because of that.
But that's another story, for another time. This one will be for a quick reminiscing of what went on this past year so far, and what I can do in the time left (without freaking out).
If you don't count the few blacked out months this year, everything else has been pretty uneventful. Life is slow (as slow as it can be living in KL) and steady. Work is slow and not really steady.
There are times when I wish somewhere in this stifling slowness I could stop and ponder, what is it that I really want to do. I have figured it out now, and the ball is in my court for to act.
I'm not sure if I have the bravery, I am not used to risks. But it is almost the end of the year, and next year is my last year of my 20+ decades, and I may not have the chance again. I have blown chance after chance, due to fear and because of the comfort of not really challenging myself. But this is going to change.
Wish me luck?
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